Friday, 03 August 2012
Thanks for all the amazing feedback on my last post, let's keep it up!
So, I'm still in Michigan and it's my favorite place in the world. I don't want to have to leave...
9 days sober... Go me! That doesn't sound like a big deal to a lot of people, but for people who've struggled with alcohol abuse/addiction, thats a hell of a long time. I'm still fighting, each day is a struggle but I can do this.
I love all these quotes in this post, it might be one of my favorites!
Things just don't work out. That's the most simple explanation for life. You can dwell on why something that didn't or shouldn't have happened, but it did. So just move on. You can sit there crying over some boy who did you wrong, or you can go out and live life to it's fullest. Everyone needs reasons why things are the way that they are, but over thinking over powers your brain. It gets you hanging onto the past when what you really need to be doing is moving forward and focusing on greater things. When things don't work out, find something that will.
Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles, and less than perfect conditions. So what? Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self confident, and more and more successful.
I'm a very independent girl and some people think I'm weird because of it, but that doesn't bother me. Just because I'm not afraid to stand up for what I believe in when everyone else is sitting down, that's no reason to follow the crowd - because maybe, just maybe, I'll make someone's life better because I wasn't afraid.
We all have that person. The person you loved before anyone else. The person you loved before you knew enough to be scared of what you were feeling. If you’re really, really lucky, they’re the only person you ever love. But if you’re like most of us, they’re the one that you can never quite get out of your heart
“A good scare is worth more than good advice.”
Hope is what keeps us going in life; we hope we will be strong, we hope we will pass a test, we hope we will make new friends, we hope we will never lose the old, we hope someone loves us, we hope that love will find us. We hope when all seems lost, we hope when we are hurt, we hope when we play games, and we hope when we cry. Never lose your hope. Never give up when someone gives up on you, for they may still hope, as you do.
You call yourself a free spirit, a wild thing, and you are terrified somebody's going to stick you in a cage. Well baby, you are already in that cage, you built it yourself. And it is not bounded on the west by Tulip, Texas, or on the east by Somaliland. It is wherever you go. because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself.
-Breakfast At Tiffany's
I always have someplace else I'd rather be, even if I don't know where that is.
Some decisions are hard, some are easy, but either way it's our choices that matter. Who we choose to align with. What we choose to give in to. What we choose to resist. And most of all, who we choose to be. Because it is always our choice.
Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.
I spent my life learning to feel less. Every day I felt less. Is that growing old? Or is it something worse? You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness.
You are replaceable. And it bothers you because I am not. You aren't going to find another me. You can try, but those girls won't compare. You need me. But I don't need you. I don't think I ever really did.
When I think about what we used to be, I think of how a text from you would make my day. How whether we talked or not would determine if I was happy or sad. How I was always wondering how you really felt, never knowing for sure. I think you were afraid to show me everything, afraid to commit. Or maybe you just really are a player and didn't ever actually like me, but I don't believe that. I guess truly I won't ever know for sure, but what I do know is that I never want to have that feeling of letting someone have complete control over my emotions ever again, especially when in the end you just let me down.
I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody's going to come and save you, you've got to save yourself. Nobody's going to give you anything. You've got to go out and fight for it. Nobody knows what you want except for you. And nobody will be as sorry as you if you don't get it. So don't give up on your dreams.
I consider getting lost learning how to find my way.