Tuesday, 19 June 2012
So, I really like this post and I hope you guys do too! I added some pictures of some of my friends and I at the end so you guys don't think I'm some invisible person behind a computer. You've all helped me through so much so you deserve to get to know me a little bit more. Hmm anyway, not much else is new...
Hope everyone is having a good week so far!
Stood there and watched you walk away from everything we had. But I still mean every word I said to you. He will try to take away my pain, and he just might make me smile but the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead.
“So, I guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.”-The Perks of Being a Wallflower
I will admit, if you admit it, it's harder than we both thought. It's easier to fall apart. Look where we are. I can forgive it, I can't forget it. You left me here with all these scars and you can't deny the hardest part; I'm not in your arms.
I never really understood why you walked away from me. But now I do. Now I understand that you never really loved me. As a matter of fact, you don't know what love is and you're afraid to find out.
When you get older, it feels like happy memories and sad memories are pretty much the same thing. It is all just emotion in the end. And any of it can make you weep.
-Not a Star by Nick Hornby
“It's much easier to not know things sometimes. Things change and friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody. I wanted to laugh. Or maybe get mad. Or maybe shrug at how strange everybody was, especially me. I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and than make the choice to share it with other people. You can't just sit their and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things. I'm going to do what I want to do. I'm going to be who I really am. And I'm going to figure out what that is. And we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn't do or what they didn't know. I don't know. I guess there could always be someone to blame. It's just different. Maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Because it's okay to feel things. I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite. I feel infinite.”
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower
“Because before the time when you’re heartbroken, you get to be in love, and that’s worth it.”
“I'll be okay” Is that what you want me to say? It's called breakup ‘cause it's broken.
I've lived. I've really lived. I've failed. I've been devastated. I've been broken. I've gone to hell and back. And I've also known joy and passion. See, death for me is not justice. It's the end of a beautiful journey. And I'm not afraid to die. The question is, are you?
7 Lovely Logics:
1. Make peace with your past so it doesn’t spoil your present.
2. What others think of you is none of your business.
3. Time heals almost everything. Give the time, some time.
4. No one is the reason of your happiness except you yourself.
5. Don’t compare your life with others, you have no idea what their journey isall about.
6. Stop thinking too much, it’s alright not to know all the answers.
7. Smile, you don’t own all the problems in the world.
When I get upset, I shut down. I feel like I should be crying or screaming or something but I can't because I'm turned off. I kinda go silent and don't talk very much. I just sit there and think.
I wanted people to trust me, despite anything they'd heard. And more than that, I wanted them to know me. Not the stuff they thought they knew about me. No, the real me. I wanted them to get past the rumors. To see beyond the relationships I once had.
When you lose someone, it stays with you, always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt.
You know, sometimes we make decisions about our life and they feel like the right decision at the time. No, they are the right decisions at the time. But that doesn't mean they'll be right decisions forever and you know what I've realized as I've gotten older? There isn't a definite right and wrong anyway. Sometimes we do what seems wrong but we have good reasons for doing it so it's not so wrong after all.
I believe good things happen everyday. I believe good things happen even when bad things happen. and I believe on a happy day like today, we can still feel a little sad. And that's life, isn't it?
“There's nothing like deep breaths after laughing that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons.”-The Perks of Being a Wallflower
You have to believe there are kisses and laughs and risks worth taking.
Don't you long for something different to happen, something so new and exciting it carries you along with it like a great tide, something that lets your life blaze and burn so the whole world can see it?
I can't do this anymore. I cant pretend that I've moved on, when the truth is that whenever I see you, I'm flooded with everything that we lost. Everything we could've had. Everything we should've had. What we had, it was real. I just know it, it felt real. We both felt it, I just know it. There aren’t any words to describe the relationship we had. We never dated but we both knew that we cared about each other. I don’t know what happened between us and that is what still tears me apart inside.
I'm not sorry to be the person I am today, and to have the life I have now. Even though it's not what I thought I wanted for my future a year ago, it's what I want now.
^This girl is my best friend in the world. I don't know what I would do without her.^