Friday, 15 June 2012
So, I think I miss Ryan so much because I miss who I was when I was with him. When I was with him I believed in love and all that stuff I just miss being as happy as I was when I was with him. I miss who I used to be when he was mine. Does that make sense? And the crazy thing is that if he apologized and just explained himself, I'd take him back. I'd take that idiot back. I know I should get over him and all that but something keeps pulling me back. Maybe this is me holding onto something that isn't there but I just have this weird feeling about Ryan... I don't know what it is but I don't think he's completely gone yet.
Then again, this could be me trying to hold onto something that isn't there.
“Life likes to knock you down to see if you can get back up. One of these days, I’m going to punch life back, enough is enough.”
You have to understand that I’m not the girl I used to be…I struggle with the choices I’ve made and I make mistakes, and half the time I wonder who I really am or what I’m doing or whether my life means anything at all.
There are things in life we don’t want to happen, but have to accept; things we don’t want to know, but have to learn, and people we can’t live without, but have to let go.
I just want to know if you meant everything you said. I don’t want you back, I don’t want an apology, I just want the truth. I want to know if what we had was even worth fighting for in the first place. I want to know if I cross your mind, I want to know if you realize just how much you messed up.
Maybe if my heart stops beating it won't hurt this much. And never will I have to answer again to anyone. Please don't get me wrong, because I'll never let this go. But I can't find the words to tell you. I don't want to be alone, but now I feel like I don't know you. One day you'll get sick of saying that everything's alright. And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending, just like I am tonight.
there are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. the choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.
Don't be afraid to make mistakes, stumble, and fall because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get more than you ever imagines. Who knows where life will take you? The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.
There comes a time in everyone's lives where they learn that the only way to live happy is to grasp, embrace, love life and the person that they are. And when they stop loving themselves and start relying on others to do it for them.. well, that's when they truly start to lose themselves and the happiness that they started to feel.
And now I can't forget all of the little things we said with confidence. Oh, I was once told that every good thing we have must come to a bitter end.
You're not in love with me, not really, you just love the way I always made you feel. Like you were the center of my world. Because you were. I would have done anything for you.
It’s like you’re screaming, and no one can hear… you almost feel ashamed, that someone could be that important.That without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts…You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it’s over, and it’s gone…you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back. So that you could have the good.
Family is not always blood. It’s the people in your life who want you in theirs, the ones who accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile, and who love you no matter what.
I don't want to sit around and hope good things will happen. I want to make them happen. I want to be in control of my own destiny
I just can’t tell you what you want to hear which seems to be a theme in my life. Just because you can’t tell someone doesn’t mean you can’t feel it. You can be with someone and be happy and not love them. Or you can love them and not be with them.
You're still young. Don't make your life miserable by thinking about problems. Instead, always think that in every problem there's a solution and everything will be okay. Do what you think is right. Take risks, try new things, laugh and live as if there's no tomorrow, for the next years of your life you'll have no choice but to be more responsible. So enjoy while you're still young and vibrant.
“I love that moment. When you’re on a long car ride, or listening to music, or reading. And you completely zone out. You forget your troubles, and everyone around you. You’re focused on that one thing, and that one thing only. You’re content, and everything seems peaceful.”
“Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets.”
We cling to music, to poems, to quotes, to writing, to art, because we desperately do not want to be alone. We want to know we aren’t going crazy and someone else out there knows exactly how you’re feeling. We want someone to explain the things we can’t. We love everything tied up neatly, easy, simple. And when we can’t do that, it scares the hell out of us. To not know the next step, or where you’re headed, kills. Being unsure isn’t in our plans. But it’s those moments, the ones where you risk it and step unknowingly into the future, that assures us life is larger than we’ll ever know.