Saturday, 09 June 2012
So, I miss him when I shouldn't. This sucks. I hate this feeling... Everyone thinks I've gotten over him.
This is harder than I thought and it's hard to explain so I just keep all my feelings bottled up.
So, thats currently my life. Hope everyone else is a lot less confused than I am right now.
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I like to think that somewhere out there, on a planet exactly like ours, two people exactly like you and me made totally different choices and that, somewhere, they are still together. That is enough for me.
I'm blasting music, so I won't hear my thoughts, but it's stupid, because the lyrics just remind me of what I'm trying to forget. I'm torn between wanting the feeling to go away, and trying to keep it a little longer. Because you brought out something in me I never knew I had.
You turned me into the type of girl that is so desperate for affection she doesn't know how to be in a relationship.
Don't you ever say that to me. Don't you ever tell me that there's something I can't do. Because I can do anything. Anything. And when you say that I can't, that's when I can, because I'd gain more motivation than you can imagine just to prove you wrong. I am capable of anything, and you'd better believe it.
Sometimes, you're afraid to become a couple because you're afraid of losing what you already have with that person. But life is about risks and requires you to jump. Don't be the person who looks back and wonders what they could have had. No one waits forever.
She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important.
"Was it hard?" I ask.
"Letting go? Not as hard as holding on to something that wasn't real."
-I Heart You, You Haunt Me by Lisa Schroeder
Sometimes this feeling haunts me, never leaves me alone. It leaves me shaking, trembling, fighting what I'm told. It leaves me questioning what is true about me and you. And as I watch the sun rise for the last time, I think of you.
Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results.
Right then, I wanted to go back in time and relive every moment with him. One more secret smile, one more shared laugh. One more electric kiss. Finding him was like finding someone I didn’t know I was searching for.
And I've become content with this life that I lead, where I drink too much and don't believe in much of anything.
Don't let him tell you you're not worth it. You're amazing, beautiful, and you could love him more than anyone else could. And if he can't see that this is a once in a lifetime chance, he's just not worth it.
Hope is a driving factor in helping us stay on course in life, it may feel as though it comes and goes, but in reality there is always hope, there is always a chance for something else to happen, and you need to have faith that it will.
I'm not proud of everything I've done but I'm pretty sure I'd do it all again.