Wednesday, 06 June 2012
Thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart for the amazing responses I got on my last post regarding Ryan. Honestly it really made this whole thing easier. It's hard because I know I am better off without him and that he truly isn't worth my time but I still miss talking to him sometimes. And that's just something I'll have to get use to. But I'm okay with that. I have the greatest friends and the most amazing Xanga followers!
Again, thank you, it really means so much to me to know there are such fantastic people out there who are willing to help practically a stranger with her problems.
You guys are the best!!
Enjoy this post!
It’s one of the worst feelings in the world when you know you have to let go but you don’t because you’re still waiting for the impossible to happen.“The good times and the bad times both will pass. It will pass. It will get easier. But the fact that it will get easier does not mean that it doesn’t hurt now. And when people try to minimize your own pain you’re doing yourself a disservice. Don’t do that. The truth is that it hurts because it’s real. It hurts because it mattered. And that’s an important thing to acknowledge to yourself. But that doesn’t mean that it won’t end. That it won’t get better. Because it will.”
I needed something to go right so badly that I think I convinced myself it was real. Even though I think, deep down, I knew it wasn't. I think I knew he was going to leave, I just didn't want to believe it.^me with Ryan^
I don't know what I want to do with my life; I just know I want to do it. I want to see my world. I want to meet every single person breathing on this earth. I want to give everyone a hug or a handshake. I want to make someone's life a little easier. I want to be different than the people I know, because that's what makes us beautiful. I want to be absolutely ridiculous before I die. I don't want regrets. I want to stand for something.
Sometimes you have to stop thinking so much and just go where you're heart takes you. Sometimes you have to watch the broken pieces fall, no matter how much you want to fix them. Sometimes you have to let someone walk away, even though you want them to stay
“How stubborn are the scars when they don’t fade away? Or just a gentle reminder that now are better days?”
Time ticks by; we grow older. Before we know it, too much time has passed and we've missed the chance to have had people hurt us. To a younger me this sounded like luck; to an older me this sounded like a quiet tragedy.
-Life After God by Douglas Coupland
Everything that happens to us, the good and the bad, is part of us. It took me a long time to realize that it doesn't have to define who we are. We get to decide.
I want to believe in it all again. In art, fate and love and I want to believe that I've made the right choice and that I'm on the right path and there's still time to fix the mistakes that I've made and I guess I want hope.
-One Tree Hill
People say that when we grow up, we kick at everything we've been told. We rebel against the world our parents worked so hard to bring us into. That part of growing up is kicking at the ties that bind. But I don't think that's why we kick at all. I think we kick when we find out that our parents don't know much more about the world than we do. They don't have all the answers. We rebel when we find out that they've been lying to us all along.
You see that girl? She seems so invincible, right? Just touch her and she'll wince. She has secrets and doesn't trust anyone. She's the perfect example of betrayal because everyone she trusted broke her.
You still mean everything to me, but you’re just not worth the fight anymore.
Not everything turns into what it's supposed to be. Not everybody is supposed to just walk out of your life. Sometimes surprises and second chances do happen and you can't be afraid to let them happen.
I just want to free fall for awhile.^haha I do this all the time with my friend Joey^