Wednesday, 09 May 2012
Why am I so depressed? I'm trying so hard not to be, but I'm just not doing okay right now.
Days shouldn't be this difficult. And to think I had everything under control. Oh, the sweet ironies of life.
You'd like to know me, well, but I've got things inside my head that even I can't face.The greatest battle is not physical but psychological. The demons telling us to give up when we push ourselves to the limit can never be silenced for good. They must always be answered by the quiet, the steady dignity that simply refuses to give in. Courage. We all suffer. Keep going.
“The good times and the bad times both will pass. It will pass. It will get easier. But the fact that it will get easier does not mean that it doesn’t hurt now. And when people try to minimize your own pain you’re doing yourself a disservice. Don’t do that. The truth is that it hurts because it’s real. It hurts because it mattered. And that’s an important thing to acknowledge to yourself. But that doesn’t mean that it won’t end. That it won’t get better. Because it will.”
Being in a relationship is not about kissing, dates or showing off. It's about being with the person who makes you happy.
“The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.”
Looking back I guess it's really for the best, still you’re something that I crave. Even though I know it was right to let you go, you’re a habit hard to break. I got used to being high and nothing that I try seems good enough right now.
In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are, and in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn’t be the person we are. So just live, make mistakes, have wonderful memories, but never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly where it is you’re going.
I may have my insecurities, but I know how to pick myself up and try again.
I know there are times when I'm actually hard to be with. You fall in love with someone who has so many problems and I just want to say thank you for being there for me despite the reasons not to. I have a lot of flaws that could have pushed you away, but you're still there, trying to keep me.
The secret of happiness is to face the fact that the world is horrible, horrible, horrible.
I ran into you yesterday, memories rush through my brain. It's starting to hit me: now you're not with me. I realize I made a mistake. I thought that I needed some space, but I just let love go to waste. It's so crystal clear now, that I need you here now. I've got to get you back today. This time, I want it all.
Learning to let go should be learned before learning to get. Life should be touched, not strangled. You've got to relax, let it happen at times, and at others move forward with it. It's like boats. You keep your motor on so you can steer with the current. And when you hear the sound of the waterfall coming nearer and nearer, tidy up the boat, put on your best tie and hat, and smoke a cigar right up till the moment you go over. That's a triumph.
-Farewell Summer by Ray Bradbury
We have so many needs in our life, but at the end of the day, all we need is to be needed.
It's not that I'm mad at you. I had just wished and hoped so hard that you could be the one thing I could finally count on.
“There is a universal truth we all have to face weather we want to or not. Everything eventually ends. As much as I’ve looked forward to this day, I’ve always disliked endings. The last day of summer, the final chapter of a great book, parting ways with a close friend. But endings are inevitable. Leaves fall, we close the book, you say goodbye. Today is one of those days for us. Today we say goodbye to everything that was familiar everything that was comfortable. We’re moving on. But just because we are leaving, and that hurts, there are some people who are so much a part of us they’ll be with us no matter what. They are our solid ground, our north star. And the small clear voices in our hearts that will be with us. Always.”
You're cheating yourself out of today. Today is calling to you, trying to get your attention, but you're stuck on tomorrow, and today trickles away down a drain. You wake up the next morning and that today that you wasted is gone forever. It's now yesterday. Some of those moments may have had wonderful things in store for you, but now you'll never know.
-Love, Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli
I learned a lot of lessons awful quick and now I'm telling you that they were not the nice kind, and it's been so long since I've felt fine.
If you don't like who you are and where you are, don't worry about it because you are not stuck either with who you are or where you are. You can grow. You can change. You can be more than you are.
- Zig Ziglar