Monday, 19 March 2012
No school today. Yeah, yeah!
Ever think you're over someone but then you see that person and all those feelings you thought you've forgotten, come rushing back? Yeah... Uh oh.
Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Screw this all.
Gracie"Why do you keep coming back if you're not going to stay? Because even when you're gone, you're never really gone."-Everneath"It just seems easier, not to really care about anyone. It seems to me like it gets really complicated once you start to care."-"But if you don't care, whats the point?""Um... It's fun."- Seriously even if it winds up with your heart getting shattered or even if it winds up with you breaking someone else's heart, it's still worth it. To actually care about someone."-Past Perfect"Have you ever been in love?"-Yes. I thought I was in love anyway. So I guess I really was, since I thought it, at the time.""And was it scary?""Absolutely. Someone can wind up getting hurt. That's scary. A boy once told me that love without heartbreak is just a pretty myth."-Past Perfect
It's not about forcing happiness. It's about not letting sadness win.
This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember; some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them, actually pretty much all of them, are going to break your heart. But you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always always always believe in yourself. And most importantly, keep smiling, because life's such a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.
I hate being in this position. I’m forcing myself to let go of the one person I need in my life. You’re the only thing that makes sense, but at the same time, the one thing that complicates me. I know that I’m better off without you, but I feel empty whenever I try to let go.
Or don’t text back, thats cool too.
Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round? Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight? Or gazed at the sun into the fading night? You better slow down. Don't dance so fast. Time is short. The music won't last.
Shit doesn't happen - life happens. Things go wrong, people change, and sometimes it feels like you can't go on. But, in the end, you have to stop blaming everyone else and put it on yourself to be happy, because it's your life and you have to make it through the hard times to get stronger.
This year, I lost my way. And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But losing your reason for the journey is a fate more cruel.
-One Tree Hill
I told you to be patient, I told you to be fine, I told you to be balanced, I told you to be kind. Now all your love is wasted? Then who the hell was I? Now I'm breaking at the britches and at the end of all your lines.
"Because before the time when you're heartbroken, you get to be in love, and that's worth it."
"Loneliness happens precisely when you're with people who should make you unlonely."
-Big Girl Small
I laid beside her on the bed.
"What if someone you loves ask you to give their freedom back?" I asked her.
She opened her eyes and stared at the ceiling. "You let them go."
"What if I don't want to?"
"That's stupid." She said. "You can never own a person."
I thought I was over you, I thought I was okay. I really thought it this time. You're no longer for hours and hours and hours in my mind, I don't think about you as much as I always did. But I still do. I thought that I could close the door, telling myself every day that it doesn't matter. Lying to myself everyday, saying that you don't matter to me. But deep down inside it's not okay, because it really does matter. You do really matter. I do still love you, I do still want you to like me. I'm protecting myself by saying that it doesn't matter, so you won't hurt me, but it's a lie. I don't think about you as much as I did, but I still do. I still can't forget you. I'm just too in love to let go.
But don't forget who you really are. And I'm not talking about your so-called real name. All names are made up by someone else, even the one your parents gave you. You know who you really are. When you're alone at night, looking up at the stars, or maybe lying in your bed in total darkness, you know that nameless person inside you...Your muscles will toughen. So will your heart and soul. That's necessary for survival. But don't lose touch with that person deep inside you, or else you won't really have survived at all.
I've been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it's really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you're always glad you took it.
And when it's over and it's gone, you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back, so that you could have the good.